807pm.I have been entirely too busy Lately. Between Trying to sell my condo, Photography, Hair, clients, Photo-shoots and shows, there hasn’t been much room for anything extra. I have needed to get this out and on paper for at least a week and half now. I have been driving around thinking, wanting to pull over and write, but as usual I am running late for an appointment. Anyone who writes probably goes through similar challenges. I’ll get compelled to write because of something I heard inspirational but I don’t get a chance to write because of the daily routine of life. I try my best not to wait, because at that particular time what I feel is the purest. Even more importantly, how I felt at that exact moment can’t be brought back or re-triggered very easily. SO LETS TRY ANYHOW!
Usually in my cases it is stemmed from lyrics over a guitar like Lauryn Hill, Chris Tomlin, or Kings of Leon. I try to keep my music Selection diverse (wink). Or my inspiration might come from a book that I am reading and one sentence or one word will provokes me. ‘I start to think and then I sink into the paper, like I was ink’. Trapped in between the lines on paper. Then my mind separates from my body and I begin to see the Quality, the beauty and art in Everything......Camelback Rd Starts moving in slow motion. A 15 minute ride seems like a trip to Cali. Better yet Time might as well be suspended. I get lost in a Sea of birds flying in Sync. Lines are created by Shadows and small amounts of light on a wall. The emptiness and quietness of a passing dirt field feels perfect. ‘Then my life becomes a puddle to the subtle glimpse of blue skies’
Do you know how your body really works? Have you looked at that clouds from a plane window? I don’t think you do, nor do I think you have.
Sometimes I think the He has given me his eyes to see his Children as sees it. And That is that He loves this place and you are His favorite child who He is especially fond of. Your freckles, your hair, your grin, your style, your walk, your tears, all your imperfect self.
( standing on top of the table yelling and grinding my teeth ) HE LOVES YOU SO MUCH! but you can’t fully fathom how much. Our minds can’t understand how it all works. I see and hear his voice in everything.
Can someone step up to the plate? Do you know how to love? Can you serve? Can you kiss? Can you Hug and embrace? If nothing else the new commandment is to love your fellow man as yourself. A letter that Paul wrote says YOU ARE NOTHING WITHOUT LOVE!
He whispers loudly’ my love for you is everlasting’ I long to be intimate with you. You can be rich as Bill Gates or Give all you possess away but without love it is useless. Only the things you do in Love will last. Only the things you do For God will last. God is Love. The words are synonymous. You can not have one without the other. Whether you help an elderly across the street, smile at someone across the room, or go out of your way to help someone in real need. That is operating in love or showing God inside of you.
What ever you set out to do, hair, photography, school, Cooking, or business? Do it With a right heart. Do it with passion. From what I hear, you only get one life to live. So go at it Aggressively. Take Life by the throat until she gives you what you want and you fulfill your purpose.
I will come down from the dinning room table. I know I might be a little loud and obnoxious but I am just starting to scratch the surface of finding out who I am and discover what my gifts are. It’s quite exciting and interesting at the same. One thing I came realize early in my youth was that I am very determined. About what? About Everything.
But tonight I just realized That I might be.... a late bloomer
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aaron watkins